Friday, December 23, 2011

Christmas Adam

Here I sit on the afternoon of Christmas Adam, Randall's family introduced me to that term many years ago.... Anyway, I just ran an errand that was crazy and insane and took way longer than it should have, so now I have declared that we are DONE! The only thing I really have left is to deliver a few goodies and pick up a few gift bags for things that are difficult to wrap but honestly at this point those things will just have to get wrapped somehow because I am done! Did I mention that already? In fact those goodies we made today, just may not even get delivered. Quite the Christmas cheer right? I think that all I want for Christmas is a big fat nap!

Yesterday around here it was 60 something degrees and so I'm not really feeling like it's really December 23rd or anywhere close to that. Having the tree up with all the twinkle lights does help the mood in the evenings but this year for some reason that I can't quite put my finger on, I'm just not feeling it...The Christmas spirit that is. And with that not feeling it comes a guilty feeling, so I am very clearly doing something wrong. I think too that this year I am more aware of so many that are struggling with finances, marriages, health etc. While this knowledge makes me feel even more grateful for how extremely blessed we are, it also makes me wish I could somehow do something to "fix" everybody's stress and anxieties. Maybe that's what Christmas is actually all about...being aware of and praying for those people I know and care about, and knowing that its the same Christ whose birth we are celebrating in just two days, that grew into the man that we worship, and that it's the gift of His atonement that can help us all overcome our weaknesses and deal with those pains and anxieties. Something to think about...