Tuesday, November 8, 2011

The Countdown

I can't believe it. The Holidays are almost here. The fact that we didn't really celebrate Halloween until November 4th, (See this post), makes Thanksgiving that much closer! I can't wait. My parents are coming to be with us for Thanksgiving/Randall's birthday. I think having family makes it so nice. It gives you an excuse to go all out and bake and cook and decorate like crazy. In fact while Randall was away on one of his most recent trips I may or may not have indulged in a little retail therapy at one of my very favorite stores. HOME GOODS! I love that place. If you don't know what that is I would say that it's like a marrying of TJ Maxx and Taipan trading company. I am a sucker for all things glass and there is a huge section right up front with all sorts of dishes and glassware and decorative vases,...and did I mention dishes? Ahh...I love it. And, it's cheap! My table cloth was $8, and I bought 12 new goblets for $12.99, now that's my kind of store. I figured it was only right that I get a more Thanksgiving worthy table cloth, because last year I had to use my white tablecloth, and white dishes on a white table cloth certainly does not "scream" Thanksgiving to me. So I bought a pretty gold-ish table cloth and then some deep purple cloth napkins because I thought that would be pretty and not so blah as gold and orange. Anyway, I have spent a little time on pinterest lately gathering all sorts of new holiday ideas.

It's tradition for Randall and me to make pies the night before thanksgiving, while watching a good movie. Then Thanksgiving morning we usually watch the Macy's day parade as we prepare the other fixins'. Since we don't have cable we won't get the parade, so I'll have to look into watching it on the Internet, because you can't have Thanksgiving without the Macy's parade. Last year we went and watched the parade from Rand's office and it was a dream come true, but it was also exhausting. Seeing it is his birthday on actual Thanksgiving this year, I figured I should make it a little more about him and what he wants to do and not all about me, at least for one day of the year :) We do however think we may go to Central Park the day before where they fill up the balloons and get them ready for the parade the next day. I think that sounds like a lot of fun. We shall see.

When I went on my date to the library I picked up some new recipe books and have been perusing all sorts of yummy things to maybe add to or mix up our Thanksgiving Fare. I am planning on making a Thanksgiving binder with all the recipes that I use on a yearly basis. I know this all sounds ridiculous and shallow but I LOVE Thanksgiving.

I was also trying to think of a way to make the holidays a little more meaningful and spirit filled so I have started reading the New Testament. Our scripture group is studying the New Testament this year and I figured reading and studying about Christ would be nice and I am enjoying it so far.

Last night Randall and I had our planning meeting to discuss our all things Christmas, like budget, activities, what are we doing etc. It got me excited and way overwhelmed too. Sometimes in an attempt to get everything done and organized I overwhelm myself and started to feel panicked. I updated my Address book and finished up our Christmas cards today and really happy with them. The card is just various pictures because I decided that while I would like to think that the people receiving the card want to read about the things going on in our life, and how amazing and talented little Johnny is, in reality xmas cards often comes across of being so over the top or just plain rude! I don't know how many times I've read a Christmas letter and thought to myself things like "wow, compared to them, we are LAME, we don't do any cool stuff like them, or "who really cares that you bought a new house, and car and went on 7 vacations this year? I remember saying to a friend of mine once after receiving her Christmas card one year and feeling really bad comparing my life to hers, "Wow, you guys had such a fun year!" She replied that it had taken her 3 days and a lot of crying to figure out something to say. We all want our lives to see amazing and glamorous but bottom line, is life just life and even if you do have that amazing life, maybe I'm just too insecure to read about it. We on the other hand, have some cute kids in my opinion, and we finally had some great pictures taken(thanks Josh!) and if people want to know the specifics of our life, then there are many ways in which they can look me up so we can chat in real life, not in the crazy xmas card world of "we are so amazing, and better than everybody else." Whew, I feel better now.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Hallowhat?

Saturday October 29 the forecast predicted a little snow in the late afternoon, so when the first flakes began to fall, I thought nothing of it. In fact, I was a little bit excited. The first snow of the season is always magical, and last year we didn't have any snow until December 26th! The only problem is the little flakes soon turned into big flakes and they just kept coming and coming. Randall and Ethan has been away for the weekend and were supposed to be flying in Saturday night, so when the roads began to be covered with snow I was a little nervous.

Miraculously after two long delays in Atlanta my boys were able to get home about Midnight, thanks to a ride from our trusty home teacher. We had received 6-8 inches of snow over the course of the day and the trees were looking a bit Seuss-like. What I mean by that is that the trees still have all their leaves on and adding heavy wet snow to those branches weighed down all the branches so they were all just bending over like a weeping willow. I noticed some branches breaking off in the road and some power lines came down but I never once thought that this would spell disaster.

Little did I know that about 3pm Saturday many, many and I'm talking millions of people had lost power. Somehow we were fortunate at that point to still have power. In fact Sunday our home teacher called and asked if we could return the favor and let them come over and warm up since they were some without power and their house was already to 55 degrees. We awakened to no power but welcomed them over anyway. It was fun to have their family over since Stake Conference was cancelled due to the weather. We enjoyed a little slower paced day and went to bed. We awakened in the morning we learned that the train lines weren't running due to hundreds of downed trees and many miles of damaged lines. This meant no work for Randall, yeah! Or so I thought. Without power or Internet Randall didn't even have a way to get into his work account to put on his out of office. His boss even asked him to go to an Apple store to try to log in there to do it. Randall's day off turned not so off, with him taking some client calls and the like, but it was still nice to have him home and not work for the most part.

The crazy part is that when we tried to get to the mall we had to try 3 different routes just to get there because of so many closed roads due to downed power lines and trees. I'm not exaggerating when I say that our poor little town looked like it had been hit by a tornado. Oh, and I forgot, Monday was Halloween. Our Mayor (I guess) decided that Halloween would be postponed until Friday November 4th. Can one do that?!? Apparently so. Oh, and did I mention that school of course was cancelled? Day by day I would wait for the call saying whether there would be school the next day or not. By Tuesday the kids were still home, Rand was able to get into work, and the house was cold. Thankfully it was only 55 degrees, which was chilly but not unbearable. The hardest part actually was having the kids keep enough clothes on. I was cold at times with a coat and a hat on. Kate especially was the worst and kept coming out in a skirt and t shirt and I would have to say "NO, long pants and long sleeves and socks or slippers and a coat!

Thankfully I wasn't worried or stressed really at all. I figured it wouldn't be long, because who in this day and age goes without power for an extended period of time? Little did I know. Many people in our ward were without power for 5-6 days! We were prepared with battery powered lanterns, flashlights, and many candles. We did realize quickly though that while we have a stash of "C" batteries, we very much need to stock up on "D" batteries. I was tempted to go trick or treating for batteries. Thankfully due to our location right next to the hospital we were one of the first after a few days to get our power back. Every time I am unhappy with the location of where we live I am reminded of how lucky we have been with our location for various reasons, and power is certainly one of them. We didn't lose power at all with Hurricane Irene and we didn't have any flooding with the snow storm, and on a day to day basis we couldn't be in a more convenient location to the train, library, etc.

The blessing in receiving power days before others was not only warmth, but that we had the opportunity to serve others. I don't write that to toot my own horn but I learned a very important lesson from this experience. Accept help!!! I, like many people, I'm sure due to pride, do not like to accept help. In fact I have a funny story about that. When I was pregnant with Jane I was really sick. I was throwing up all day and feeling horrible and just trying to stay alive. Needless to say the house was a complete wreck. So much so that one of the kids had spilled a ton of raisins all over the family room floor, and I didn't have the energy or the care to just pick them up or even ask them to pick them up. Some friends of mine came by during that time to give me a care basket full of things to help with my nausea and meals and various things to make me feel better. While they were there visiting one of my friends said "let me pick up your raisins" very non chalant, and I practically yelled at her "NO!!!" I was SO embarrassed that they were even there in the first place after who knows how long, and I was NOT going to let her pick them up. A silly thing really but that was so not going to happen. We still laugh about that now, and from time to time I will say "Nicole, let people help you pick up your raisins" and she totally knows what I'm talking about. Another time I was 8 months pregnant and we were moving out of our house and Randall was begging me to let people help me clean once everything was moved out. After much pleading on his part I finally promised him I would get some help. So...after hours and hours of cleaning myself, I went to my neighbor and asked her if she would come vacuum my living room for me so I could tell Randall I had help. I don't say this to say look how awesome I am but I am realizing how dumb that is. People really want to help. I saw needs of people and offered to do things and so many times it was like "no, we don't need to come spend the night, no, you don't need to do my laundry, NO... " I finally realized that it may be uncomfortable to let others see you at your worst, un-showered, dirty laundry etc., but they really want to help. We had the ability and desire to help people and sometimes people let me and sometimes they wouldn't and it just made me sad. While it will still be difficult I've decided that next time I need to let someone "pick up my raisins".

Another thing I learned through all this is how the council we are given from the leaders of our church is so amazing and inspired. Being without power and heat was mostly just an inconvenience. Others not of our faith were not prepared as we were and it was a true difficulty for them. With no prompting from me I was talking to a good friend of mine who is not a member and was without power for 6 days. She and I have discussed many different aspects of the gospel including food storage. She pointed out to me that this was probably one of the reasons why our church leaders ask us to store food. I couldn't believe it and was really excited that she put that together all on her own.

Needless to say by Thursday the kids were still out of school and Halloween had been cancelled at that point. Thankfully the Zoo was having trick or treating so I took the kids over there so they could as least put on their costumes and get some candy. It was a fun time. Wow, who knew the adventures we would have while living here, the good news is I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

A Date with Me

Last night I took I had the chance to a little "Me" time. In fact a friend of mine asked what I was doing and even offered to watch the kids so Randall and I could go out but I said "No thanks". Sometimes a girl just needs to be on her own.

Rand's been gone a lot lot with work and then an unexpected family death so this alone time was "timely". The funny thing is when I finally have this opportunity I stress out about what I'm going to do? I often feel like I don't know what I like anymore or go window shopping only getting myself down about clothing I don't want to buy because it isn't the size I want to wear (which I know is stupid and I'm trying to get over that) and then feeling like in a few hours I'm supposed to "find myself", and come home completely rejuvenated. Only it doesn't happen that way, and how could it in a mere few hours?

Rand is brilliant though and asked why I didn't just go to the library? I think the thought of having the time to do anything I want and going to the library seems rather lame and implies that I'm boring. The thing is we all know I'm not boring, so well, I went to the library. I LOVE the library. I spent hours there and could have spent my whole time there if my meter wasn't going to run out of money. Instead of just feeding the meter I decided to just move on to my next destination...Barnes and noble. Sensing a theme here? But first why I loved the library. For the first time in forever I had time to read through books that I wanted to read. I made a huge pile of the ones that sounded interesting and then sat down and looked a little closer to decide the ones I wanted to take home. The library I found is a really good way to see what interests me by just walking down the subject isle and seeing what subject makes me want to walk down that row and peruse. What to know what my interest are? Home decor, photography, organization, holidays, art history( a new thing for me that I would really like to spend some time studying), music, entertaining, cooking. Nothing too earth shattering or deep but it was exciting just the same. I wish I could say it was something nifty but it is what it is and frankly it's refreshing to choose what I really like instead of what sounds impressive or what others might like. I came home with two book to just read, and a slew of others with recipes for Thanksgiving and tradition and and holidays ideas. I'm so excited. Oh, and as a guilty pleasure I checked out a season of project runway. Don't judge me. I love seeing how creative people are and how they can be given a task and make something amazing and imaginative with just fabric, and often times not just fabric but say only items you can find in a grocery store. Randall would rather die than watch something like that, and I told him now he knows how I feel about Planet earth, there I said it. I know everybody thinks it's amazing, and it is amazing but if you've seen it once, or even part of it been there done that.

Anyway, after the library I was starving so I decided I wanted something not quite fast foodish but not sit down either. I once went to dinner by myself years ago at a sit down restaurant. While I felt comfortable doing it the people around me and their stares and reactions bothered me to where I haven't done that since. Although I think living here and getting used to people stares and reactions I wouldn't think twice about it. I ended up at a place called Panera Bread wanting a salad or something. I ended up with a half salad half panini option and frankly was disappointed big time in the sandwich and the salad was OK, and for $12! When the person rang it up she even said "it may seem pricey but that's because these are high quality signature items". I may end up at Wendy's next time because their salad is cheaper and WAY better.

After my awesome dinner I went to Barnes and Noble, another favorite. I could spend hours perusing the bargain areas, as well as the magazines, and children's books. I bought a darling children's book about the true story of the man who made the balloons that were initially large puppets for the Macy's day parade. It is so fun and cute and will be kept on my shelves so it won't be ruined. I really hate stuff, but love books. I also bought a little bargain book something along the lines what every Dad should know about daughters and Mothers about sons. It has a religious take on it too and I thought for $5 it couldn't hurt. My relationship with Ethan goes very up and down where I adore him and compliment him and we feel close, and then other times where he never meets my expectations and seems to never be focused etc. so I thought it might have some good tips. One quick section I read was that if Mothers compliment their sons on the good things, you will see more of those good things. Something I need to work on. Ethan is such an amazing boy and I need to just look past his funny ways. Like the fact that he can't wear any piece of clothing even if it has the tiniest hole that you can't even see unless you stretch the fabric. This is especially true with socks, in fact this morning he told me he couldn't wear that sock because it was getting "thin". Also as we were getting ready to leave for the airport today I asked him where his jacket was and he said he hasn't know for days. Wish he would have told me that days ago when we weren't walking out the door. He also can't set the table while talking because he can't focus on more than one item at a time. I'm starting to think this is a boy thing. He gets excited about what he's talking about and has to be told each thing to set over and over until 30 minutes later we are almost there :) He does really well in school thankfully so somethings working.

After the book store I went over to Short Hills Mall. This place makes me feel crazy. It has every store imaginable and all very high end and so it is fun to walk through some of my favs like Crate and Barrel and Pottery barn, and Anthropolgie, but leaves me feeling often empty and selfish and greedy thinking, it really isn't good. I had to pick something up and that's why I went but really it was my least favorite stop.

At the end even though I wasn't really hungry true to myself I figured I might regret it if I didn't have some treat of some kind before the night was over. I had heard recently of someone getting a slice of pumpkin cheesecake at The Cheesecake factory and while I'm NOT a cheesecake fun it sounded so good and "Fally". I figured Rand might think that a nice treat so I brought a slice home to share. Sadly when I got home he was still on a client call with Australia until late so I ate my half not waiting for him to get off his call.

It was a nice night but mostly because I finally did things that are truly "me". Don't take my word for it but I think I make a pretty great date.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

A Jersey Day

Oh boy what a difference a day makes. Just the other night Randall and I were having a very serious discussion about whether we would consider staying here forever. The concenses was that we really would if it weren't for just one teensy little thing like the cost of a home around here, oh and then the taxes on top of that. Anyway, we were happily discussing all the little things that we love about living here and how much even the things that we found difficult in the beginning are now just quite "normal".

But then today I had what I very lovingly refer to as "A Jersey Day". I'm just minding my own business and suddenly I found myself almost face to face with a very upset and very rude woman in a parking lot that left me almost in tears after the little altercation. I just can't believe how quickly people can be so rude. And then it just seems to be in my cards that the rest of the day I continued to have these little "Jersey" incidents. I even called Randall trying to catch him before he was on his plane today completely upset saying "Let's move to Georgia, I hate New Jersey."

Randall called from the airport early this evening to tell me he had bought me a gift. He said I had to guess what it was and since he was on a layover in Detroit I guessed almost immediately that he had bought me a new University of Michigan sweatshirt, since I had finally gotten rid of mine that I've had since my college days oh just 10 years ago. I was so excited. He just walked in the door and handed it to me to try on, and to add insult to injury... it's too small! I think it's time for bed. Tomorrow is another day...in Jersey.

Shirts vs Skins

The other night Ethan was getting ready for soccer practice when he turns to me and says "Mom, I sure hope they do shirts and skins tonight, and I hope I get to be skins." Of course somewhat giggling I ask him, "Why?" "Cause it makes me feel so tough!"

Thanks Ethan, I needed that.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I admit it, I was wrong

When Summer was coming to a close, all my friends were so sad to sad goodbye to lazy days and the craziness of Summer.  I kept thinking, "what are they talking about, this summer has been non stop crazy!"  But, then school started, and my kids are older this year, and boy what a difference a year makes.  We have more activities, more homework, more errands, and more drop offs.  I feel a bit crazy. So I admit it, I was wrong, the school year is crazy!

The first week I prided myself on the well oiled machine we had running around here.  I would awaken before all the kids and shower and be ready when they awakened so we could have a good breakfast and not be rushed to get out the door.  I walked the kids to school and and back each day.  While the kids were away I did laundry and cleaned house and it stayed done for awhile and I loved it.  Dinner was done everyday by 3pm and I felt like "I totally got this."  Then I don't know what happend but somehow the Leave it to Beaver days are over and while things aren't totally out of control I just feel like I am constantly running, and my laundry gets done and folded but not put away, or dinner gets left to the last minutes during the hardest hour of the day when Jane wants attention, and the kids needs help with homework or practicing and I just want to scream, and scream I have.

I also pride myself on the fact that I am NOT a yeller.  But the last week I'm ashamed to say that there has been quite a bit of yelling.  There probably would have been more yelling except for the fact that we share a wall with our neighbors and that does inhibit me somewhat, thank heavens :)  I think part of this sudden craziness is that the kids are tired and adjusting to all the busyness themselves, which means there is a lot more crying on they're part and more tantrums and me getting impatient.  I have consumed more M&M's in the last week than probably over my lifetime (ok, so that was a bit of an exaggeration, but only a bit) 

I'm hoping things settle down and I am doing my best to say "No" to certain things like when the PTO comes calling for help or Anna wants to join "The daisies" girl scout troop.  I did sign up to do a few crafts for holidays at the kids school so I think that's plenty for now.

Anyway, I am just feeling a bit ornery and sadly this is my update.  I am so far behind in all that I need and want to post but it is what it is and one of these days I will get to it. But not for now, and that's okay.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

It's Coming...School time that is

I'm overwhelmed with different emotions as the kids prepare to start school in just 3 days...gasp. While there were a few days last week that I couldn't wait for that day to come, now it's practically here and I can hardly believe it. We have had a great summer filled with many fun and busy things. The time has literally passed faster than I ever could have imagined. Last summer was the LONGEST summer of my life. It probably had something to do with the fact that we had just moved here, I had a brand new baby, we didn't join the local pool, and I didn't know anybody or anywhere to go, AND we had almost an extra month of summer since Utah gets out of school so early and they start so late here. This year however there was always something to do or see or someone here visiting us. I have a list of things that we did that I want to blog about, and yet don't even know when I will get the time to sit down to unload my camera full of pictures.

Things are are only going to continue to be busy. Ethan will have soccer on Tuesday and Saturdays, Anna gymnastics on Thursdays, Ethan and Anna both have piano on Wednesdays and all sort of meetings and baby showers and RS activities all of which I'm in charge of to keep us going full stream ahead.

I'm looking forward to some time to de-junk from all the summer accumulation, deep clean, and get organized. The thing I am excited for the most is having things once cleaned to actually stay that way without 4 kids and their whirlwind to mess it up the second it's been completed. Although I have to say that Kate is our biggest mess maker as of late. She is very into building forts and "traps", using anything she can find to basically make just a huge pile of junk. Then of course when she is asked to clean it up, she replies "I'm too young, or it's too heavy" or a smattering of other excuses. Oh, and I already forgot that Kate will start school too on Friday. She will go to school 3 mornings a week. I think she's ready and will love it and I'm sure once she starts I will love the time I have with just Jane to get things done. The thought of leaving her for those hours a week right now makes me a wee bit sick. Not in a I don't think this is a right kind of way, but a how is it possible that she is 4 and going to school? Next year she will start Kindergarten and go ALL DAY! That thought almost breaks my heart and yet I think she will do fine and enjoy it. Included in her preschool is an activity each day. Monday she does dance, Tuesday she has a swimming lesson, and Friday she has gym and fitness. I'm anxious to see how she takes to all of these new experiences. I think she will be one tired cookie come night time.

This time of year is also one of the busiest with my calling. I am over the activities in Relief Society as well as the 6 weekly groups that we have. I have great group leaders but I kind of have to get everything organized and up and running. We also have a RS quarterly activity next week and I only have 1 committee member and she was just called to be the VT coordinator so is busy herself so basically the activity is all on me. It's all good and it's nothing too hard it just adds to my now already full plate. The good news is I'm learning to lower my expectations and to delegate. Our ward is great and people are always willing to help if you just ask. I'm just trying to keep this all in mind as I go to back to school and don't accidentally over commit myself to helping in my kids classrooms. There's a time and a season right?

I'm anxious for this next phase and hope it's a smooth transition. Randall gave all the kids and myself our "Back to school" blessings this afternoon and that was nice. I don't think the kids realize what a big deal that is. We tried to help them understand what a blessing it is that they have a Father in the home that not only loves them, but holds and is worthy to use his Priesthood to bless them whenever then need. I still remember receiving a father's blessing before school each year and think it is a very sweet and important tradition. We'll see how the week goes. Wish us luck!